(Written in February 2009)
\nVery hard to get up this morning.\u00a0\u00a0 I\u2019m tired & nauseous & weak & have no energy or enthusiasm for doing anything.\u00a0 I did send the email asking for help to Janet, and similar ones to Pat and Ann, and got immediate and wonderful responses.\u00a0 I also called Judy Brubaker who was very sweet.\u00a0 \u201cWe\u2019ll get you through,\u201d she said.\u00a0 I felt very moved & softened by the response.<\/p>\n
I see Dr. Seigle today.\u00a0 I sure hope he can help me.\u00a0 I have no idea what\u2019s going on with me any more.\u00a0 I can\u2019t even tell if I\u2019m terrified or depressed.\u00a0 The symptom of terror is the nausea, the symptom of depression is that nothing means anything, everything is hard work, even solitaire and puzzles.\u00a0\u00a0 I can barely cook & eat & walk the dog.\u00a0 I don\u2019t know how long it\u2019s been since I showered or washed my hair, I\u2019ve been wearing the same clothes for weeks.\u00a0 I have managed to do my 40 minutes of meditation a day, usually in the evening, and it has felt like a refuge.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
(Written in February 2009) Very hard to get up this morning.\u00a0\u00a0 I\u2019m tired & nauseous & weak & have no energy or enthusiasm for doing anything.\u00a0 I did send the email asking for help to Janet, and similar ones to … Continue reading