(Written in February 2009)
\nSession with Caryn.\u00a0 I spent a lot of it with her sitting in the corner and me leaning back against her, relaxing as much as possible.\u00a0 Trying to let my body learn what it feels like to feel really safe and held.\u00a0 Frantic parts of me were upset that if I don\u2019t do something I\u2019ll never get better.\u00a0 Another part of me knows that learning to be deeply relaxed is very healing \u2014 as I used to do with Brad.\u00a0 And I can only do it with someone who can provide a witness and a container.\u00a0 Caryn asked what would help me feel safe, and I said to have someone with me all the time.\u00a0 She said I was learning to have that be the earth, the earth that I\u2019m connected to all the time, that holds me and doesn\u2019t let me go.\u00a0 So I\u2019m practicing giving my weight to the earth.\u00a0 When I left at the end of the session I felt much more present, not so dissociated.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
(Written in February 2009) Session with Caryn.\u00a0 I spent a lot of it with her sitting in the corner and me leaning back against her, relaxing as much as possible.\u00a0 Trying to let my body learn what it feels like … Continue reading