(Written in August 2008)<\/p>\n
I’m BEYOND exhausted.<\/p>\n
I\u2019ve been here before and I\u2019ve come out of it.\u00a0 Many times.\u00a0 The sense of \u201cforever\u201d is the baby\u2019s, is part of the brain chemistry.\u00a0 I\u2019m just typing up from the beginning of July when I was full of energy and hope.\u00a0 That part of my life is just as real as this dead hopelessness.<\/p>\n
It\u2019s so strange to be typing up from July when I had plenty of energy and was feeling good about myself and my life.\u00a0 Nothing has really changed since then \u2014 I already knew my investments were down \u2014 but I got physically tired, there was too much bad news & not enough good news last week \u2014 so I raise my meds and hang on hoping it will work.\u00a0 One thing I can do is cut back drastically on the money I give away.\u00a0 My highest priority is to have something to leave for Neskaya.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
(Written in August 2008) I’m BEYOND exhausted. I\u2019ve been here before and I\u2019ve come out of it.\u00a0 Many times.\u00a0 The sense of \u201cforever\u201d is the baby\u2019s, is part of the brain chemistry.\u00a0 I\u2019m just typing up from the beginning of … Continue reading