(Written in August 2009)
\n\tI\u2019m feeling bleak. I haven\u2019t been able to connect with any of the people on my support team.
\n\tBeverly D called late yesterday in response to my message. We had a good talk. She\u2019d love to have me visit some time. I seem to be OK when I\u2019m with someone, it gets hard when I\u2019m alone. That\u2019s different from in the past. It used to be if I was depressed, it was almost harder to be with people because I\u2019d still be depressed.
\n\tI\u2019m feeling sad & despairing & lonely. I\u2019ve done everything I can to find someone to just be with, with no result. I don\u2019t think it\u2019s that my friends are tired of me, but I\u2019m feeling pretty discouraged. I can see this is exactly how a baby would feel if Mom left her alone. She can\u2019t do anything for herself, all she can do is cry and hope someone will come. But too often either crying doesn\u2019t work, or she gets yelled at. So even the thing she can actually do doesn\u2019t work. There, there, Little Jenny. You didn\u2019t deserve to be treated that way. Because of it, you are badly wounded, and badly hampered in your efforts to live a healthy life.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
(Written in August 2009) I\u2019m feeling bleak. I haven\u2019t been able to connect with any of the people on my support team. Beverly D called late yesterday in response to my message. We had a good talk. She\u2019d love to … Continue reading