(Written in January 2010)<\/p>\n
Dear Guides and Guardian Spirits, I\u2019m feeling pretty awful.\u00a0 I\u2019m not even sure whether I\u2019m scared or sad, but I feel so tired and weak.\u00a0 Can you help me?<\/p>\n
Dear Jenny, take a big step back.\u00a0 Here\u2019s this woman, who works very hard to do good in her life.\u00a0 She always tries her best to act with compassion and kindness.\u00a0 But a lot of her life is a struggle because of the debilitating effects of post traumatic stress.\u00a0 She lives with a jarred mechanism of body and nervous system, that makes it difficult to feel comfortable in her own body.\u00a0 She also struggles with a negative self-image that resulted from her mother\u2019s inability to see her daughter as someone separate and distinct from herself.\u00a0 She also struggles with letting her real \u201cbig\u201d self appear in the world, because her mother was jealous of her creativity, exuberance, and intelligence, and she learned to be ashamed of them.\u00a0 So her life is a long struggle with dysfunctional woundings from her earliest years, and rare times of being able to enact her creativity and generosity in the world.\u00a0 Dear Jenny, even though you find it so hard to enact your big self in the world, you are still able to do a lot of good.\u00a0 All your work to heal yourself helps change the world even when you are not successful.\u00a0 We love you, Dear Jenny, and we wish you could feel and take in our love, but we know that\u2019s very hard for you to do.<\/em><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" (Written in January 2010) Dear Guides and Guardian Spirits, I\u2019m feeling pretty awful.\u00a0 I\u2019m not even sure whether I\u2019m scared or sad, but I feel so tired and weak.\u00a0 Can you help me? Dear Jenny, take a big step back.\u00a0 … Continue reading