That journal entry for June 6 continues:
I’m also feeling more hopeful about the world. I think it was while I was working on “Goodness beyond goodness” that I saw that the Universe was so much bigger than the idiocy that’s going on on planet earth. I also understood something about undeserved suffering, that it is helping to transform the world in the same way that my work with my own pain is helping. Along the lines of “offering pain as prayer.” And possibly also even as a larger understanding of “Jesus died for your sins.” All these innocent people are suffering to redeem the world. I really don’t understand how that can be, it sits in me as a knowing. Maybe I’m beginning to trust my “knowing” without a strong felt sense. Maybe my felt sense of truth is becoming more subtle. I think of the quote from Teilhard de Chardin: “Evil is a statistical necessity of a community in process of self-organization.” Don’t know what he means by “statistical.” Maybe it’s that when a bunch of units are attempting to self-organize into a larger entity, some of those units will try to hold on to an old way of wholeness, which is wholeness by sameness, and a step backward. “Self-organization” is a process of combining differentiated units into a higher-order wholeness.
My goodness, this is hard to get into language. But it’s the most fun I’ve ever had. Maybe this is what poetry is for, to express the inexpressible.
“No doubt the universe is unfolding as it should be.”
One of the things I’m discovering is that, although it’s bad for me to be too much alone, I do need a certain amount of solitude.
The actual quote: “Evil is the statistical necessity of disorders within a multitude in the process of organization.” from Teilhard de Chardin, Heart of Matter
“No doubt the universe is unfolding…” from Desiderata.
The relevant verse:
You are a child of the universe,
no less than the trees & the stars;
you have a right to be here.
And whether or not it is clear to you,
no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.
My need for solitude — I am an introvert which means that contact with people can drain me and I need time alone. Extraverts are the opposite, energized by being with people, not liking time alone. Introvert/Extravert