(Written in April 2009)
Parker Palmer talks about having one’s limits being as important a clue to vocation as one’s strengths and gifts. He also talks about “true self.” I wonder — if my “true self” was shattered by trauma, then how can I recover it? or is trauma part of my vocation? Talked to Beverly who said it doesn’t matter, whatever happens to you, you go on doing what you do — which in my case means my commitment to the truth — which I keep right on pursuing, embodying, even while struggling with depression. She said: “Your commitment to the truth and writing painting dancing is how you give your love to the world — and you do it with great tenacity.” She says that’s how I love the world, enormously, every day.