Monthly Archives: September 2019

Early Writings

Posted on September 27, 2019 by jenny

Friday, September 27 Forgot to write that yesterday, in the middle of everything else — or maybe it was the day before — I got out some of my journal binders and started reading from the very first pieces.  I … Continue reading →

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Needing to make things safe for the baby

Posted on September 24, 2019 by jenny

From my journal for September 23 Thinking about trying to tell my insistent friend why I can’t just switch to eating Vegan when I agree that it’s best for the planet, best for the animals.  I’ve been struggling to understand … Continue reading →

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Legacy

Posted on September 23, 2019 by jenny

Because of Stephen Jenkinson, I’ve been thinking about my legacy.  I don’t care if people remember me.  If Neskaya’s still going, I expect they’ll have a memorial service like the one we did for Evie.  What I do know is … Continue reading →

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The Suffering of God

Posted on September 22, 2019 by jenny

Richard Rohr’s Daily Meditation from the Center for Action and Contemplation Sunday, September 22, 2019 I am not alone in my tiredness or sickness or fears, but at one with millions of others from many centuries, and it is all … Continue reading →

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Death Stories

Posted on September 20, 2019 by jenny

I’ve been collecting death stories for a long time. The first is from my ancestor Jenny Murdoch. I’ve been told a story about her, I like to think of her as my mother’s mother’s mother, but it’s too late to … Continue reading →

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There is no Planet B

Posted on September 19, 2019 by jenny

3rd cup.  I see that the killing of the planet is what’s making looking at my own life and death be more meaningful than struggling to get my taxes done.  It makes everything I have to do to keep going … Continue reading →

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Regrets

Posted on September 19, 2019 by jenny

Gregory Hoskins: I’m gonna take a little walk through them fields, I’m gonna carry me gently so my heart can heal I’m gonna find me a demon, in a dark dark wood You can’t come with me. I wish you … Continue reading →

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“A dying life that is faithful to the struggle of being human…”

Posted on September 18, 2019 by jenny

I stayed feeling pretty bummed out until I got to the chapter: What does Death ask of us?  Then it sounded like there was something I could do with what time and energy are left to me.  When I watched … Continue reading →

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Struggle and Confusion

Posted on September 17, 2019 by jenny

I have been having a very hard time for the last couple of weeks.  I got Stephen Jenkinson’s book Die Wise, and have been reading it slowly.  A lot of thought-provoking ideas.  I think I started to go down when … Continue reading →

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Looking Straight at the Ending of my Life

Posted on September 4, 2019 by jenny

My friend Elizabeth sent me a link to a talk by Stephen Jenkinson.  It didn’t do much for me, so I didn’t follow it up.  More recently she sent me a link to a short film about Nights of Grief … Continue reading →

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