Monthly Archives: August 2010

Journey from Abandonment to Healing

(Written in January 2007) I’ve been reading a book The Journey from Abandonment to Healing by Susan Armstrong, and finding it extraordinarily helpful.  She talks about childhood abandonments as well as divorce and adult breakups.  She describes five stages and … Continue reading

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Viktor Frankl

(Written in January 2007) I’ve been reading Viktor Frankl “Man’s Search for Meaning.” His description of the experience of prisoners in the Camps is painfully resonant with an abusive childhood — all the dehumanizing practices — the brutality, the unfairness, … Continue reading

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Cold Intellectual Place

(Written in January 2007) Bad morning.  Woke up feeling nauseous and in that cold detached place.  Trying to think who this cold intellectual place could be (what an odd phrasing!) I think it’s the five-year-old.  She’s fed up with a … Continue reading

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Traumatized World View

(Written in January 2007) Woke scared.  I say to myself “This is a trauma based world view.” I say “everything’s gonna be all right.” I say “Mother is dead, she can’t hurt you now.” Saw Dave yesterday for Somatic Experiencing.  … Continue reading

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More About Jenny

Just got back in touch with an old friend and referred her to my blog to see what’s been happening with me.  I checked my “About Jenny” page on this blog, and found that it ends in 2006 with me … Continue reading

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Guidance

(Written in January 2006) Dear Guides and Guardian Spirits, I’m having a pretty hard time.  I did the morning chores – wash dishes, haul wood, fill birdfeeders – with an ache in my heart, a lump in my throat, tears … Continue reading

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Reading Old Journals

(Reading early Journals 1968 – 1975     Written in March 2008) I’m still feeling a little strange. It could be from reading through my old journals.  I’ve been reading through the breakdown in Davis and coming back to Maine.  Mostly desperate … Continue reading

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Reading Old Journals

(Reading early Journals 1959 – 1967    Written in March 2008) I started reading the Mimi Diary last night — got through all the early writings to Collision with California.  O my.  What a romantic teenager living in an impossible … Continue reading

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One Wild and Precious Life

(Written in August 2005) I was thinking about the line from Mary Oliver: “what will you do with your one wild and precious life?” and how it always makes me feel bad, like I have wasted mine.  Well, have I … Continue reading

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Lammas

In the wheel of the sacred year, I think of the solar holidays, the equinoxes and solstices, as providing a basic framework.  They are about the relationship between dark and light, day and night.  The Cross Quarter Days are determined … Continue reading

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