Monthly Archives: May 2010

The Current Dark Age

Many indigenous people have predicted that the times we are living in will be very difficult.  One of my favorites is from the Hopi: MESSAGE FROM THE HOPI ELDERS To my fellow swimmers: There is a river flowing now very … Continue reading

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Keeping Spirits Up

I’ve been feeling pretty bummed out. I’m also tired — a weekend of dancing, long drive to see my therapist, second long drive to see a body-worker and visit a good friend — I still haven’t put my house back … Continue reading

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(Written in June 2004) Workshop question: what helps you be present to yourself.  I need space and time and permission — more than permission, I need to know beyond a shadow of a doubt that this is the right thing … Continue reading

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(Written in June 2004) What to do when I fall into depression.  Remind myself that the feelings of hopelessness and helplessness and worthlessness are not giving me information about reality.  They are caused by brain chemistry and trauma.  The truth … Continue reading

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It’s Painful Looking Back

(Written in July 2008) I’ve been reading from 1986, and it’s so painful.  I am struggling so hard to keep going, and I’m angry at myself for “not doing better”, and deeply disappointed that I’m not being able to carry … Continue reading

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More from Surviving America’s Depression Epidemic

From Bruce Levine: On depression in adolescence: “Why is it that so many young people have unhealed wounds?  Since our consumer culture is increasingly uncomfortable when it comes to dealing with pain, many parents have difficulty dealing with their children’s … Continue reading

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Somatic Experiencing

(Written in January 2010) When I got to Caryn’s I went to my corner and collapsed, saying I was exhausted.  Then a cranky person appeared.  I sat up, saying I was angry, pounded on things.  Caryn said “What does your … Continue reading

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More from Bruce Levine

From Surviving America’s Depression Epidemic, by Bruce Levine “Given the human need to be contemplative without regard for productivity and efficiency, and given America’s taboo against nonproductivity and inefficiency, Americans, in a sense, are pushed toward illness.  … “If you believe, … Continue reading

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(Written in May 2009) Dear Guides & Guardian Spirits, I’m in pretty rough shape.  A little scared, a little fragile, a little depressed.  I’m feeling cold and distant, and don’t have much hope for the future.  This struggle out of … Continue reading

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I have just come back from Rowe for a weekend with Deena Metzger. Deena is a poet, a therapist, a shaman, and an elder.  I have been with her a number of times and I love her fierceness, her warmth, … Continue reading

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