Monthly Archives: April 2010

“Resisting Therapy”

Posted on April 20, 2010 by jenny

I’ve been reading Surviving America’s Depression Epidemic, by Bruce Levine, and finding it enormously helpful. “This book is for people who believe that any approach to depression that does not confront societal and cultural sources for despair becomes part of … Continue reading →

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Somatic Experiencing

Posted on April 19, 2010 by jenny

(Written in October 2008) Session with Caryn.  Worked with the high activation.  I have difficulty describing it.  A squarish lump of compressed energy in my chest.  That feeling when you’re startled & breathe in & stop, hunching shoulders.  I feel … Continue reading →

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Somatic Experiencing

Posted on April 18, 2010 by jenny

(Written in October 2008) Session with Caryn.  Amazing.  I told her about falling apart so badly Tuesday night.  She asked me to reproduce how it felt in my body and I had a sense of the frantic frozen traumatized baby.  … Continue reading →

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Breakdown

Posted on April 17, 2010 by jenny

(Written in September 2008) 8: 22 I’m doing pretty badly.  I keep having waves of fear — tho they do pass.  Saw Karen in Montpelier — by the end of the session I was quiet inside.  3 waves of fear … Continue reading →

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Letter to the Editor

Posted on April 16, 2010 by jenny

February 2008 Kayla picked up a Courier & said my letter quoting Eisenhower got printed! They titled it “Words Ring True” To the Editor: Recent stories in the Courier have talked about the high cost of maintenance and upgrades of … Continue reading →

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Failure

Posted on April 15, 2010 by jenny

(Written in February 2008) “In the middle of my life I found myself in a dark wood — where the true way was wholly lost.” David Whyte, quoting Dante.  The moon was low enough to shine on my face and … Continue reading →

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God & Shells

Posted on April 13, 2010 by jenny

Conversation with God (on a retreat with Deena Metzger, August 1996) On the New Moon, we celebrated the Feast of Hecate.  Deena asked us to find something to represent a seed, to fill with our visions for the future, and … Continue reading →

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Guidance

Posted on April 12, 2010 by jenny

(Written in December 2006) Dear Guides & Guardian Spirits, I’m feeling caught in some cold intellectual place.  I need connection and meaning.  Please help me. Dear Jenny, we love you.  Eleanor loves you, Kayla loves you, Iona loves you.  The … Continue reading →

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Journal: some positive experiences

Posted on April 9, 2010 by jenny

(Written in June 2009) It rained in the morning, then got very windy with gleams of sun.  Randi and I walked to the picnic table in the wind and sun and it was exhilarating instead of terrifying which was wonderful!  … Continue reading →

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Somatic Experiencing

Posted on April 8, 2010 by jenny

(Written in May 2009) Feeling pretty bleak.  A tough and painful session with Caryn.  I cried, screamed, roared, writhed, pounded my knees, pushed with my feet.  I even banged my head against the wall.  She stopped me, asked where the … Continue reading →

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