Category Archives: Journal

Extraordinary Ease with my Life…. Really?

Excerpts from journal written during the week at the end of February: Sunday: Woke up not sure where I was.  I think from a very intense dream.  Feeling very lost. Monday:   Had that strange isolated feeling when I woke … Continue reading

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Spasm of Self-hate

This is an example of how I work through something in my journal.  It took several days and then some of the realizations only happened while I was typing it up a month later.  These are in italics. February 7 … Continue reading

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Struggle between Old Ways and New

Wednesday, February 21 Feeling really sick.  Sore throat and very tired.  It felt OK to lie in bed this morning.  It may be that Erica saying I’m beyond the end of my resources gave me permission to collapse. Session with … Continue reading

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Learning Social Skills

I wrote this in my journal at the end of December.  It’s barely edited, and so somewhat clumsy.  But it’s a good example of how I work with my issues through journal work. I had dinner with Carolyn, and she … Continue reading

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Depression

Typing up from a month ago, I came to this: I woke up feeling a little bleak. just a little.  It’s as though I’m asking “What am I doing here?”  “What is my life about?”  And the answer is a … Continue reading

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Long Way From Home…

Saturday I haven’t posted to this blog in a long time.  I moved into Kendal on November 20, and since then I have been overwhelmed with myriad details that have to be dealt with in a move.  Though I was … Continue reading

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Why Keep Writing a Journal?

I’ve been working with Christia to downsize and prepare to move to Kendal.  Christia discovered that she could tear the pages out of the spiral journal notebooks so they could be recycled.  So she’s been doing that, and it gives … Continue reading

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The “Tough Little Drip” Revisited

Friday, September 29 Woke with headache and heart burning. Yesterday was actually pretty good.  I felt OK when I woke up and had a great talk with Elizabeth.  I was telling her about the painful session with Erica and she … Continue reading

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What it Feels Like to be a Baby Left Alone Too Long

Saturday, September 23 This is what I wrote in my journal this morning.  Friday morning is when I have a phone appointment with Erica, because she is in Keene. Woke up feeling painfully isolated.  I usually say “lonely” but I … Continue reading

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Feeling Unreal

I haven’t posted anything for a while.  My life has been very difficult: overwhelming, crazy-making.  There’s an earlier post about Feeling Unreal, so that’s been another part of this difficult summer.  I don’t even know how much sense this post … Continue reading

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