Category Archives: Journal

Today

From my journal: Headache. Tired. Sad.  Slept late.  I’m disappointed with myself for feeling sad again, and then I realize that it’s sadness for all the people who are scared and suffering right now. I look at the pictures of … Continue reading

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Standing in My Truth

“A life initiation begins with a crisis that dissolves what you knew and what you were.  From the rubble of the ensuing collapse, a new self is born into a new world.”    Charles Eisenstein My first crisis happened when … Continue reading

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Acceptance of Pain

from my journal for July 23, 1976: amazing! miraculous! out of the depression and into an energy high. am weaving a finn weave project (tough going) that has been on the loom since Easter. Yesterday the weather broke and my mood did … Continue reading

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Who I Really Am was Not Destroyed by PTSD

Just typed this up.  It’s from my journal for February 12.  I’m writing about Grief Group.  One woman, who had been horribly abused in her childhood, told us about a recent dream.  She had dreamed about all the abusive incidents, … Continue reading

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Guidance

From my journal for August 25, 2019 Dear Guides & Guardians, I really need some help. Dear Jenny, we love you.  Remember the kind Spirit that sat next to you when your heart was stony, and was patient and affectionate.  … Continue reading

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Why it takes so long to heal early trauma

I’ve been reading my journal for last year and came across this piece.  It’s a possible way to understand why sometimes reassurance works right away, and sometimes it takes longer.  One thing I’ve suspected for a long time is that … Continue reading

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“Announcing your place in the family of things…”

I went to the 6th month reunion of Kindred Spirits.  From my journal: Reunion was utterly amazing.  The first night was mostly housekeeping, maybe we sang a song or two to connect.  That night I didn’t sleep at all, and … Continue reading

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The Demon’s Mirror

From my journal: Wednesday, March 4 I’m feeling very sad and very lonely. Grief group was painful. Talked to Erica about how despairing I was feeling about what’s going on in the world.  She was supportive, did not try to … Continue reading

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Looking at the Past

From my journal for July 21, 1975 My friend Michele told me that at a party the other night several people said nice things about me: Brook from tapestry class, Carol from dream class, said i was a very warm … Continue reading

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“I’ve been working for so long…”

Going through my blog for 2017, I came to this post from February 2017.  It’s a journal entry from January 2017.  It pretty well describes what I’m feeling like right now.  The only difference is that I AM in a … Continue reading

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