Category Archives: Healing

Needing More than Comfort

I’m really tired from all that’s involved in moving. Not just the physical effort and trying to organize things, but also all the bureaucratic stuff that is needed when you join a community.  I think about what Brother David Steindl-Rast … Continue reading

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Big Life Change

The first step was feeling totally helpless and needing to have someone come rescue me, but then being able to just witness that I was “at the end of my resources,” without trying to figure out what I could do … Continue reading

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Saying “No”

Wednesday, September 28 The session with Erica was very painful.  I cried a lot.  I didn’t write anything down.  I didn’t feel connected to her.  It was hard to say how I knew that.  I said something about how her … Continue reading

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Mandala of Truth

This is a piece I wrote during the Kindred Spirits gathering at Rowe.  I did this workshop with about 10 other people.  It was facilitated by Satyena who is the director of Starseed. Yesterday I did Satyena’s workshop “Mandala of … Continue reading

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Kendal Retirement Community

I have mentioned Kendal several times, but never said much about it. I started having a really hard time after Bella died in September 2013.  Lynelle warned me that it would trigger abandonment issues and it certainly did.  I started … Continue reading

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The “Tough Little Drip” Revisited

Friday, September 29 Woke with headache and heart burning. Yesterday was actually pretty good.  I felt OK when I woke up and had a great talk with Elizabeth.  I was telling her about the painful session with Erica and she … Continue reading

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Pain Becomes Compassion

I was typing up from a month ago when I had woken up feeling sad & scared, and was so disappointed that I had lost the good feelings from the day before.  I was angry at myself for “wrecking” my … Continue reading

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I Feel Pain Because I Love

Last Saturday I didn’t have any human contact all day.  I typed a lot of journal, played a lot of solitaire.  Washed a bunch of dishes.  Dumped a puzzle on the table & started turning pieces right side up.  I … Continue reading

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Grandmother Patches

We were going to do a “Grandmother Ceremony” at Neskaya in May.  One of our dancer/teachers was going to be 70 this May, so she spent a lot of time putting together the event.  Alas, two of the four of … Continue reading

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Being Present to the Beauty of Nature

For a long time, because of trying to heal PTSD, and opening up all the pain I have been dissociated from, I was unable to enjoy the beauty of Nature as I had when I was younger.  Things are changing. … Continue reading

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