Category Archives: Trauma

Guidance

(Written in January 2008) Dear Guides and Guardian Spirits, I’m feeling sad and discouraged: about the losses of my life, about the state of the world, about my lack of energy that keeps me from taking action to support the … Continue reading

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Deep Surrender

From my journal.  At the end of March I had no definite diagnosis for the pain in my back which was making it very difficult to walk, bend down, lift anything heavy. Saturday, March 30 I’m sore all over. Nothing … Continue reading

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Step 2 Again Again

I have been in constant pain in my left hip for a while now.  Mostly it’s down around 2, but when it really hurts, it’s a 10 on a scale of 1-10.  Fortunately, it doesn’t last long.  But it’s very … Continue reading

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Siege of Poor Health & Bad Luck

On February 10 I got the bad cold that’s been going around.  I had it for two weeks.  Then I developed an endless cough.  The cold was over, and there wasn’t any infection.  The doctor prescribed an inhaler that’s used … Continue reading

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The Story of my Life that Works

From my journal for June 3, 1996 But the truth is, going over the whole thing in detail again again, writing down exactly what the fear feels like and then seeing how it matches my childhood, results in me feeling … Continue reading

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Perspective on the Past

I went back and started reading my journal for 2018.  Found a lot that was very interesting. June 16, 2018 The talk with Erica was good. I have been really puzzling over why other people see what I am doing as … Continue reading

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“Should” versus My Inner Knowing

From my journal for June 17, 1993 Trajectory broken again. My flight of the last couple of days ends in a crash. Once again feeling anxious and scared, wanting to hide. I retreated into typing my journals, and the first glider plane went … Continue reading

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Past Terror

I posted a piece on a week of terror which happened in June & July,  2016.  I think that was the last time I had that much terror.  Part of it was plans for going to California for a workshop … Continue reading

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Ereshkigal

This was originally written in 1993.  I posted it to this blog on June 30, 2012.  I have recently been going back and reading old posts, and mostly liking them very much.  I do this randomly, or start from a … Continue reading

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Being Stuck in a Process

“Being stuck in a process” reminds me of a pattern Dr. Rankin discovered.  I had started therapy with her in St. Johnsbury, Vermont, in 1997.  She was a specialist in mood disorders.  I had been seeing her for several months.  … Continue reading

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