Category Archives: Trauma

Hijacked

Van der Kolk “The big issue for traumatized people is they don’t own themselves any more.  Any loud sound, anybody insulting them, hurting them, saying bad things, can hijack them away from themselves.  And so what we have learned is … Continue reading

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“Shelter in Place”

Because of COVID-19, I am getting scared on a regular basis.  If I can find either my grief or my gratitude it will help dissolve the fear.  But it’s a wild ride.  I also have been getting together with my … Continue reading

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Standing in My Truth

“A life initiation begins with a crisis that dissolves what you knew and what you were.  From the rubble of the ensuing collapse, a new self is born into a new world.”    Charles Eisenstein My first crisis happened when … Continue reading

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Who I Really Am was Not Destroyed by PTSD

Just typed this up.  It’s from my journal for February 12.  I’m writing about Grief Group.  One woman, who had been horribly abused in her childhood, told us about a recent dream.  She had dreamed about all the abusive incidents, … Continue reading

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Another Complete Cycle

Went through another complete cycle on Tuesday.  Daily Kos ran a story about how Trump has been minimizing the COVID danger.  He cares about the stock market more than people.  It showed his statements about “everything is fine” correlating with … Continue reading

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Guidance

I am probably in one of the safest places on the planet right now.  I’m in a retirement community with a good healthcare system, the campus was locked to outsiders by March 6.  People coming from outside have to go … Continue reading

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Why it takes so long to heal early trauma

I’ve been reading my journal for last year and came across this piece.  It’s a possible way to understand why sometimes reassurance works right away, and sometimes it takes longer.  One thing I’ve suspected for a long time is that … Continue reading

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The Demon’s Mirror

From my journal: Wednesday, March 4 I’m feeling very sad and very lonely. Grief group was painful. Talked to Erica about how despairing I was feeling about what’s going on in the world.  She was supportive, did not try to … Continue reading

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Creativity and Mental Illness

Writing my journal this morning, I struggled with scattered thoughts, lots of odd, confused ideas.  Then the universe connected me with an interesting piece of information.  It was on Brainpickings, by Maria Popova. She quotes Nancy Andreasen’s book The Creating … Continue reading

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Some Days I Just Want to Leave

From John Pavlovitz’s Blog: Some days I just want to leave this world. Living here much longer simply feels like an emotional impossibility lately. The cruelty is too prevalent, the atrocities too pervasive, the fractures beyond repair. It is an … Continue reading

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