Category Archives: Trauma

Some Days I Just Want to Leave

From John Pavlovitz’s Blog: Some days I just want to leave this world. Living here much longer simply feels like an emotional impossibility lately. The cruelty is too prevalent, the atrocities too pervasive, the fractures beyond repair. It is an … Continue reading

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Looking at the Past

From my journal for July 21, 1975 My friend Michele told me that at a party the other night several people said nice things about me: Brook from tapestry class, Carol from dream class, said i was a very warm … Continue reading

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“I’ve been working for so long…”

Going through my blog for 2017, I came to this post from February 2017.  It’s a journal entry from January 2017.  It pretty well describes what I’m feeling like right now.  The only difference is that I AM in a … Continue reading

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Defective vs. Wounded

Written in my journal on January 20.  I was typing it up today, and saw something I need to remember. Looking back, I see that a week ago Monday (the 13) was a good day.  I woke happy, was able … Continue reading

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A New Part of Me

I haven’t posted for a while, because I’ve been having serious trouble verbalizing my experience.  It’s been about developing a relationship with a very early fragment of myself.  It started with recognizing that the non-verbal, scared experience that I’ve been … Continue reading

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Being Cared For

I had been at Kendal since November and this was July – eight months later.  The day before I had had a tooth pulled, and then I fell for a computer scam.  I had to cancel my debit card and … Continue reading

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Blind Terror

What a strange experience.  I’m not even sure I can write about it accurately.  I thought my brain had stopped working.  I was afraid it had to do with getting old.  Erica reframed it as a stage in spiritual growth, … Continue reading

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Stunted Tree

I have just been to a retreat in Burlington.  Winter Wonder: A Circle of Trust Retreat.  It was quite wonderful and helped a lot with the emptiness and confusion I’ve been feeling.  “Circle of Trust” is based on the work … Continue reading

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Anatomy of a Breakdown

I’ve been reading through my blog from the very beginning.  I am once again in the 12 year cycle, at a time when Jupiter in the sky is opposed Jupiter’s position when I was born.  Ever since 1972 I have … Continue reading

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The Pit Crumbles

In my Friday talk session with Erica, I told her about the Pit, sitting in it with Younger Jenny, describing how deep it was, how narrow, made entirely of stone.  She said “What does it feel like to sit there … Continue reading

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