Category Archives: Guidance

Positive Learnings from Being Immobilized

Looking back, I can see that the whole sequence cold —> cough —> back pain has given me time, space and motivation to see some good things about myself and my life. From my Journal for Saturday, February 16 It … Continue reading

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Really Doing OK Just as I Am

Tuesday, January 1 This morning I was thinking about a conversation with God, where I asked what I needed to do to fulfill “His” will, and God said “You’re doing fine just as you are,” and I said “No, I want … Continue reading

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Learning Resilience

Woke up scared.  Still feeling a little activated, a kind of buzzing in my stomach.  I’m sure part of it was that I took Mocha to the vet, and she had two vaccinations: distemper and Lyme.  Yesterday she was very … Continue reading

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Bleak and Dark Inside

From my journal for October 2003 I’ve been writing and run out of things to say.  I’ve finished my tea.  I don’t want to move and I need to go on with my day.  There there Jenny, what you are … Continue reading

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Struggle with Emptiness/Meaninglessness

This was written on October 11, 2003, which happens to be my mother’s birthday. She died in November, 2001. Woke feeling scared — tried asking it but nothing happened.  Tried bringing compassion to it, sitting next to it — no … Continue reading

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Trying to Work with Fear

I’ve been reading my journal for 2003.  For several years I had just been typing up the guidance writings, but in 2003 I started typing up more from my life.  This was written in October 2003 Feeling so sad about … Continue reading

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What it’s like to live with PTSD

This is a series of journal entries from June 2016.  I think it gives an immediate sense of what my life is like. Driving home it was a glorious day, blue sky, white clouds, green trees, enough breeze to make … Continue reading

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Guidance

I don’t know when I stopped asking my Guides and Guardian Spirits for guidance.  I didn’t stop consciously for some reason, I just stopped and only realized it when a lot of time had gone by.  Recently I was with friends, … Continue reading

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Words for Survival

It was 1996, the Summer from Hell.  In February I had tried Paxil for 5 days while my terror shot through the roof & got worse & worse until the 5th night when I didn’t sleep at all.  So I … Continue reading

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Here is the Plan…

This is a piece of writing I did in Writers for Recovery.  “Show up,” and “Pay attention” are from Angeles Arrien’s Rules for Life. Here is the plan: First, do not turn on the Computer Do not read emails Do … Continue reading

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