Category Archives: Spirit

Deep Surrender

From my journal.  At the end of March I had no definite diagnosis for the pain in my back which was making it very difficult to walk, bend down, lift anything heavy. Saturday, March 30 I’m sore all over. Nothing … Continue reading

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Step 2 Again Again

I have been in constant pain in my left hip for a while now.  Mostly it’s down around 2, but when it really hurts, it’s a 10 on a scale of 1-10.  Fortunately, it doesn’t last long.  But it’s very … Continue reading

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The Story of my Life that Works

From my journal for June 3, 1996 But the truth is, going over the whole thing in detail again again, writing down exactly what the fear feels like and then seeing how it matches my childhood, results in me feeling … Continue reading

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Ereshkigal

This was originally written in 1993.  I posted it to this blog on June 30, 2012.  I have recently been going back and reading old posts, and mostly liking them very much.  I do this randomly, or start from a … Continue reading

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Fighting Against Being a Triggered Basket Case

I’m having a really hard time today.  I watched part of a video of “Man Enough” — I think the men who are speaking, about their own complicity in abuse of women, are great.  But there were also clips from … Continue reading

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Persistence

Brené Brown expresses resilience as:  “I know how to get there, I’m persistent, and I can tolerate disappointment and try again.”  ibid p 65 When I first read it I thought “That’s not me.  I don’t know how to get … Continue reading

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Needing More than Comfort

I’m really tired from all that’s involved in moving. Not just the physical effort and trying to organize things, but also all the bureaucratic stuff that is needed when you join a community.  I think about what Brother David Steindl-Rast … Continue reading

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Big Life Change

The first step was feeling totally helpless and needing to have someone come rescue me, but then being able to just witness that I was “at the end of my resources,” without trying to figure out what I could do … Continue reading

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The “Tough Little Drip” Revisited

Friday, September 29 Woke with headache and heart burning. Yesterday was actually pretty good.  I felt OK when I woke up and had a great talk with Elizabeth.  I was telling her about the painful session with Erica and she … Continue reading

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From Despair to Meaning

I continued to work with the ideas in Stephen Cope’s book The Great Work of Your Life. “Here are the central pillars of the path of action — the path of karma yoga — as expounded by Krishna. … 1. Look … Continue reading

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