Category Archives: Present Day

Extraordinary Ease with my Life…. Really?

Excerpts from journal written during the week at the end of February: Sunday: Woke up not sure where I was.  I think from a very intense dream.  Feeling very lost. Monday:   Had that strange isolated feeling when I woke … Continue reading

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Spasm of Self-hate

This is an example of how I work through something in my journal.  It took several days and then some of the realizations only happened while I was typing it up a month later.  These are in italics. February 7 … Continue reading

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Struggle between Old Ways and New

Wednesday, February 21 Feeling really sick.  Sore throat and very tired.  It felt OK to lie in bed this morning.  It may be that Erica saying I’m beyond the end of my resources gave me permission to collapse. Session with … Continue reading

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The Difference Between Empathy and Compassion

Notes from my talk with Erica on March 9: Difference between compassion and empathy Empathy [feel what the person feels] —> empathy fatigue: feel tired and guilty Compassion —> holding space for their story witness—> lets them know their experience … Continue reading

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Depression

Typing up from a month ago, I came to this: I woke up feeling a little bleak. just a little.  It’s as though I’m asking “What am I doing here?”  “What is my life about?”  And the answer is a … Continue reading

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Long Way From Home…

Saturday I haven’t posted to this blog in a long time.  I moved into Kendal on November 20, and since then I have been overwhelmed with myriad details that have to be dealt with in a move.  Though I was … Continue reading

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Big Life Change

The first step was feeling totally helpless and needing to have someone come rescue me, but then being able to just witness that I was “at the end of my resources,” without trying to figure out what I could do … Continue reading

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Saying “No”

Wednesday, September 28 The session with Erica was very painful.  I cried a lot.  I didn’t write anything down.  I didn’t feel connected to her.  It was hard to say how I knew that.  I said something about how her … Continue reading

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Mandala of Truth

This is a piece I wrote during the Kindred Spirits gathering at Rowe.  I did this workshop with about 10 other people.  It was facilitated by Satyena who is the director of Starseed. Yesterday I did Satyena’s workshop “Mandala of … Continue reading

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Why Keep Writing a Journal?

I’ve been working with Christia to downsize and prepare to move to Kendal.  Christia discovered that she could tear the pages out of the spiral journal notebooks so they could be recycled.  So she’s been doing that, and it gives … Continue reading

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