Category Archives: Present Day

Seeing my Life Whole

from my journal for November 11 On the eleventh hour of the eleventh day of the eleventh month, the Great War came to an end.  But the war in Afghanistan is still going on. and it’s just part of the … Continue reading

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Still Metabolizing a Profound Experience

I haven’t posted in a long time.  I’ve been continuing to process “Nights of Grief and Mystery,” and finding it very difficult to describe.  Both the event itself, and how it changed me.  I realize it’s going to take some time, … Continue reading

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“World Order of Planet Savers”

Thursday, October 24 Talk with a friend who insists that we were better off now than in the past.  She talked about the great plagues, and serfs, and people being killed for sport.  I wanted to say that we were … Continue reading

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Needing to make things safe for the baby

From my journal for September 23 Thinking about trying to tell my insistent friend why I can’t just switch to eating Vegan when I agree that it’s best for the planet, best for the animals.  I’ve been struggling to understand … Continue reading

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Legacy

Because of Stephen Jenkinson, I’ve been thinking about my legacy.  I don’t care if people remember me.  If Neskaya’s still going, I expect they’ll have a memorial service like the one we did for Evie.  What I do know is … Continue reading

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The Suffering of God

Richard Rohr’s Daily Meditation from the Center for Action and Contemplation Sunday, September 22, 2019 I am not alone in my tiredness or sickness or fears, but at one with millions of others from many centuries, and it is all … Continue reading

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There is no Planet B

3rd cup.  I see that the killing of the planet is what’s making looking at my own life and death be more meaningful than struggling to get my taxes done.  It makes everything I have to do to keep going … Continue reading

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Regrets

Gregory Hoskins: I’m gonna take a little walk through them fields, I’m gonna carry me gently so my heart can heal I’m gonna find me a demon, in a dark dark wood You can’t come with me. I wish you … Continue reading

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“A dying life that is faithful to the struggle of being human…”

I stayed feeling pretty bummed out until I got to the chapter: What does Death ask of us?  Then it sounded like there was something I could do with what time and energy are left to me.  When I watched … Continue reading

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Struggle and Confusion

I have been having a very hard time for the last couple of weeks.  I got Stephen Jenkinson’s book Die Wise, and have been reading it slowly.  A lot of thought-provoking ideas.  I think I started to go down when … Continue reading

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